the things worth saying.

“Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.”

-Albert Einstein

There are quite a number of people I know that just degrade themselves to the level of shit. I don't know why, but I'm guessing some do it for attention. Others would probably do that out of self pity, and the rest probably just felt like it, who knows. I absolutely hate it when I find out someone I know thinks so negatively about themselves. Some people just don't know their worth. I'm not saying I'm not one of them, I have my moments with self pity too. Everyone does.

Yes, crying and wallowing in your own self pity is a good thing sometimes. It helps us remember that this is reality, and we're still alive. To know that we are human after all. Just don't overdo it with the waterworks and the emotional negativity, too much is never a good thing. To think that you aren't just as important and wanted as anyone else around you makes you a complete and total dumb shit.

Wake up, insecurities won't make you feel any better. It only goes one way, and that's if you think you're full of shit, then you probably are. End of story. Everyone's got something inside them that they hate, or maybe just something about themselves that makes them feel bad. So, you have this "disadvantage", who gives a damn? Nobody. Well, maybe you but whatever. You could have a cleft lip for all anyone cares, that doesn't make you any less special from anyone else.

Point is, every single one of us is special in our own way. We can have anything, but we just can't have it all. Everyone's got something nobody else has except for themselves, be grateful for that. Yes, there will always be someone better than you out there and that's understood. If you look at it the right way, that's actually a good thing. I mean, if there was nobody better than you, how can you get better when you already know you're the best?

You are what you eat, from your head to your feet. Feed yourself rubbish and that's what you shall be. Feed yourself awesomeness, that's what you will fucking be.

heaven can wait.

patience [ˈpeɪʃəns]

n

1. Tolerant and even-tempered perseverance.

2. The capacity for calmly enduring pain, trying situations, etc.

Forbearance, tolerance, composure... You have to admit, not everyone has patience in the world. One would demand things to just fall into his/her lap as soon as they need a specific thing while another would rather wait it out and "keep their cool".

There are people who don't know how to be patient, whereas they would blow their minds with anger if something took too long or if a certain situation didn't go their way. A good example would be some customers in a restaurant.

Oh yes! There you are waiting in line, just waiting to reach the counter so that a restaurant employee could take your order. People tend to fiddle with themselves, or try to distract themselves with their surroundings. Impatient people, however, are just plain assholes. There are people who try to skip the line and not wait their turn, some get shit pissed if the order takes too long to prepare.

Haven't we all experienced that? Minority of people have little to no patience. Too little of that is usually a really bad thing to most. That's too bad, because too much patience is actually quite a bad thing as well just like how too much of anything is bad for anybody.

Just think of this scenario. What if you were the person behind this REALLY patient son of a bitch who ordered a small takeout of food that is taking longer than usual in that restaurant? Assertive beings would realize that the order is obviously taking far too long than it's supposed to, but REALLY patient people wouldn't care.

They'd just stand and wait anyway, hoping and assuming that things will come in due time so there's no need to rush. Another scenario could be like my dilemma a few posts ago (Read "we'll be a dream" if you have no idea what I'm talking about). The test of your tolerance and patience could be your downfall.

Oh and of course, there's also that instance where if you don't have enough patience for something, you'd give up before you even get there or get it. Don't give up too soon, a little while longer wouldn't hurt if you've already waited quite a bit. Also, don't give up too late, realize when too much is too much that you just really have to get over it and move on.

Point of the post: Have patience, just not too much. You should know when enough is enough and be able to put a limit on certain things and situations. Nobody wants to deal with an impatient person, nor does anyone want to deal with someone too "loose".

I learned this a while ago. Take it from me, I'm just one hell of a patient asshole.

untangle me.

Everybody has their own weaknesses and insecurities. I grew up feeling belittled, underestimated and told I was too young too understand, that these "older" people know more than I do in every given aspect and manner so I shouldn't question their knowledge.

Yes. It's true that older people know more than me, that I will learn only through experience and passed on knowledge. However, that does not give them the right to fucking belittle me and push me down because they know better.

I may be young, stupid and reckless but that does not mean I know nothing useful about the world. I want to learn, to grow. Given the facts, this insecurity only makes me want to go the distance and prove everyone wrong. That anything they can do, I can do better.

Just a little knowledge passed, some hard work and a chance. Just one chance to show i'm not something you should be underestimating because I'm more than just a guy with hopes and dreams.

Yes, it makes me come out as cocky and ignorant, but hell, if you can back yourself up with evidence and facts, what do you have to lose? Shove it up the other's ass if he doesn't know what's good for him. Even so, you don't have every right to be full of yourself if you've got it. When you see a mistake, don't allow it. Correct it. That's it. It's a matter of how you take it in.

Another weakness I have inside me is the tendency to think I don't belong, whatever it may be. In class discussions, in groups of friends, in certain ways, I just want to feel like I belong in the world.

I hated the feeling of being left out, pushed away because I'm not "included" or considered "not good enough". Bullshit like that, I'm pretty sure I'm good enough for everything if I set my mind to it and work hard.

Simply put in the words of John Rzeznik, a moment to be real, to touch things I don't feel, just to hold on and feel like I belong. All these insecurities and weaknesses, it feels pathetic.

Then again, I've learnt to accept the facts and face them, that I am who I am and I can only change for the better. I'm happy being all happy-go- lucky and carefree thinking of all the good things in life even if it makes me come out as someone who's just plain immature and full of jokes.

Just because I am what I am doesn't mean when given the right moment or time, I can't be mature or serious. I don't need someone to tell me to do that, I'm just happy acting like I'm 12 trying to enjoy all the good things in life and taking out the bad in the world.

Be careful of your judgements, they're not usually right. It takes a whole book to write a story, and every chapter is different from the other, so you can't tell what it is from one measly cover. Some people don't get it, but that just isn't any of my concern because I'll be too busy enjoying life while these "people" make their judgement.

the vibes of responsibility.

The dictionary says that responsibility is the dependability and reliability of one's own initiative or authority. It also says responsible is the capacity for moral or rational actions and thoughts.

If you were to have a mindset full of moral and rational thoughts and actions, would that make you a person full of responsibility? Does being dependable and reliable mean you are responsible?

Uncle Ben Parker from Spiderman comics says, "With great power comes great responsibility." So here's my question, what exactly does it take to be responsible? How will you know when you are responsible enough?

How reliable and dependable do you have to be? How big a capacity do you need for morals and rationality? That's something I've yet to discover.

To me, being responsible means being able to think for yourself, to take care of yourself. Just like what the dictionary's said. It's just that for some people, responsibility comes to be a very big thing, something you need a lot of.

On the other hand, some prefer less responsibilities. The problem free philosophy. To some, it's said that the lesser the responsibilities, the lesser time you spend worrying about the stunts you need to pull and more of enjoying the stunts you'll be pulling.

Then, there are the people who say the more the responsibilities, the better. Some interpret that having more responsibilities mean more importance to others. The feeling of knowing you're important is a pretty good feeling, it gives out a good vibe.

Would you give up enjoyment to be important? Or would you give up importance to enjoy life as it is? If you're that awesome, you'd probably find important and responsibilities enjoyable so who needs life huh? Hahaha.

That brings me to the conclusion that is depends on how you look at things to know what enough is for you. Everyone's got it different. What matters is if you think you're responsible enough to have certain responsibilities, then you are. It's a matter of what capacity you have in you to go the distance.

Nobody can tell you how responsible you are for something, it's a matter of whether or not you think you can handle something without burdening others or burdening yourself doing it. People can judge how responsible you are, but that's a different story.