save your breath and i'll talk instead.

There are people who put up plastic faces. Faces they show to others, faces they want others to believe are genuine. These people are full of shit. To hide the truth is not only lying to others, but lying to yourself. Some people would go to any lengths to prove their plastic face is real, some people even wind up insane believing it's real even when they know deep down it's a complete fake.

I'm not going to hide anything, in my own honest opinion there are just some people in the world that aren't worth being real to. What you see is what you get, and that's what I'm going to give you. Nothing more, nothing less. I'm not going to lie if I know inside that I like it, nor will I just be nice and say that I do even when I know I don't. Of course, that's just me. What about you?

Some call it being heartless, I call it being brutally honest. For example, you are about to be given a cupcake. Would you rather have the one that's bitter but sugar coated with something sweet, or the one that's bitter and nothing else? Don't tell me you won't pick the one with the sugar coating, because a vast majority would do just that.

In all honesty, that's what everyone wants in the world. People who sugar coat them with what they think is nice. Only a select few in the world want to face the bitter reality. Different people put up different kinds of defense mechanisms so they won't get hurt, so they don't have to face the bitterness, so they can get away and escape from reality.

A friend of mine once said, "escaping reality is like escaping the trial meant for you to go through in order to begin your journey of self discovery". The point I'm trying to make is obvious, don't try to escape reality. You're only fooling yourself if you think escaping reality is living. It isn't.

By escaping reality, you're only lying to yourself for not facing the truth, for not facing the fact that what is is what is. You'd be living a lie, hell, you'd be a lie. You'd be putting up a plastic face for everyone to see, because the real you inside that face doesn't want to face what's in front of you. You'd only be trying to convince yourself that a lie is the truth. It's pathetic, it's disgusting, it's fucking stupid.

To know the truth, and cover it up with lies because you don't want to face it... How low can you get? It's like saying you love someone, but holding it back and saying you don't because you're afraid of the truth. You're in denial and murdering a part of your world. What's worse is getting caught in the act. It's not so bad if nobody knows, but once you get caught doing this, every image about you is completely shattered.

All the truths you've said in the past are now moot after what you did, and moving on from that, how can you expect someone to believe what you say anymore? In the end, everything you say and will say will just end up as a doubt, nothing believable anymore. You've done it once, you can do it again. It's all face value from there.

Face reality, don't kill it.

negativity is an understatement.

Be warned. This isn't one of my usual blog posts. I'm just not in the mood to fuck around right now. If you're not interested at me ranting about negativity and venting out frustration and anger, do not read this. I will post something 'worthwhile' after this... when I feel like it. Whatever.

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To know who your friends are, who your REAL friends are... That's not something easy or simply put. A friend is a person who is on good terms with another, whereas in medieval times a friend is someone who is not considered a hostile threat to another. But right now in our time, a friend is a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard, one who gives assistance and different virtues such as trust, empathy, understanding, compassion and whatnot.

There are many different kinds of friends. Some who take advantage, some who pretend, and some who manipulate. To find a friend who is genuine, however, is a long shot among them all. When you do find one that fits that bit alone, do not take them for granted. Be proud of the friends you've got, be it an army of them or a just a handful, each one is special you cannot put a price on. Young or old, whatever difference, a friend is a friend.

Many just don't understand that. Most take friends for granted, some even for their own benefit alone thinking only for themselves. The bullshit in that situation is that some acknowledge it and just let it be anyway since some are just really lonely, desperate for attention, or are just really fucking forgiving.

I'm one of them but I know when to put my foot down when things go too far. It just disappoints me far too much to know that there are people in the world I consider friends who have this characteristic. On the up side, I still look at them positively, no matter how bad I know then can steer me wrong. Everyone deserves a second chance.

There are times when things do go too far, and when that happens, I'm not one to forgive. I forgive but I don't forget, and when the time comes that you go too far, I don't give a fuck if you jump off a bridge, I'll only forgive you when I see fit. Everything has consequences, I know that too well. Even after all that, there are still some situations for a stubborn asshole like me to not know exactly when it has become too much.

A friend is a friend, and everyone should know just how to treat something that valuable.

Although everyone deserves a second chance, some just don't deserve it yet.

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No matter what stunt you pull, a lie is a lie. Like Merlin said: "When a man lies, he murders a part of the world". However you want to put it, a lie will always manage to find a way out. When you lie and another finds out, no matter how hard you try to fix it, the damage would have already been done. You cannot undo a lie. You're doomed from the start, thus you just absolutely under no circumstances cannot end it right once it's started wrong.

Worst of all, if you can lie to a certain person, you sure as hell can do it again to them.

all we have is what's left today.

Whenever you're in a relationship, whether you know it or not, there are things you and your significant other follow even if neither one of you discussed having to follow it with the other. I'm no expert when it comes to things like this, but I've picked up a thing or two about relationships and whatnot from friends, family and God knows where else.

Here are some things I've experienced, and was "informed" about (informed because there are things I forget to do too, I'm only human).

Never forget or neglect your responsibilities. Just because things have changed with a certain someone, does not mean everything else will change with it. Don't forget your place in your life, your friends, and your family.

Stick to one. When you're labelled as in a relationship with someone, dating or getting intimate someone else aside from that person is out of the question. Understand that they are yours and you are theirs, not in any material way, but through emotional means. If you don't want to be tied to one person, don't be in a relationship.

Respect. A person has needs, wants, likes, and dislikes and things attached to him/her. Don't diss any of them, that includes his/her friends, family, and material desires. If you want him/her, you have to be able to accept all of him/her.

Trust. A relationship cannot stand side by side together without it because it's all about trust. You can't take risks together, have believable conversations, rely on each other or even cooperate without trust.

Face the consequences. Be sure of your decisions, don't regret anything. It's all or nothing, and if you can't take it all, you can have nothing. In the Philippines, they say: "gawin mo ang gusto mo, pero panindigan mo".

Don't hide anything. Your partner is not just your lover, he/she is also your best friend. Someone you can be yourself with, tell anything and everything to, and enjoy absolutely anything with.

Don't rush things, live in the moment. Who knows what you could miss? Enjoy the little things, sometimes the ones that are overlooked are the ones that matter the most in the end of it all.

Fighting and arguments are good things. They're mistakes that are learned from and improved on, that lead to a deeper, better and stronger relationship with whoever it is you're with.

A little jealousy in a relationship is healthy. It only shows you're cared about, you're wanted, you're loved. You wouldn't be jealous if you didn't care.

Give space once in a while. Some alone time to yourself and your other is a good thing. There'll also be time to miss each other. Just because you're in a relationship with someone does not mean you have to be together every waking second of every day.

No lies. This applies for absolutely EVERYTHING. Do not under any circumstances lie, it's the worst possible thing you could do. You'd be betraying their trust, hiding the reality from them, and spitting on your respect for them, which is probably nothing because.. You lied.

Be proud. He/she is with you and no one else. Show off for all anyone cares, because you have something nobody else does, so to speak. Don't be ashamed of having something to do with them, that's just stupid.

Know the difference. They are not material things you can just have to use for yourself for your satisfaction, attention and enjoyment. They're human beings too. Don't think only about yourself.

Stay classy. You don't have to give everything to your lover, leave some things for yourself. Nothing ever goes the way we think they will, and if your lover disappears, you've got nothing.

Know your priorities. Your priorities are one of the things that should change when you get a girlfriend/boyfriend. Know which should be more important than the other.

There are more to this and that, but I have no intention on putting up the rest because I just either can't put it to words, or I just can't be fucked to bother (I don't really have much time to go online much anymore). I'd love to rant more about it but I'll continue some other time, this seems to be satisfactory for.. let's say, part 1. Have a goodnight, people.